BANU

I always eagerly return home to find pieces of my complex Middle Eastern identity by reconnecting with my roots. Home is the safest place to understand the first things. It was at home that the first questions about the authenticity of existence, identity and relationship to the outside world, role and social position were formed for me.When I saw Maydegol, the concept of home came to my mind again. Because despite having three homes, she didn’t feel like she belonged to any of them, and in fact, she avoided all three. I thought about how she makes sense of herself in this world when she was born in a country where her existence as a woman is not valued and respected, either by the Taliban or by regressive ideologies. Will she have an opportunity to develop her values, understand and receive about her true self and enough opportunities for growth in the new house she has moved to? And finally, in her own home, the only safe zone in this world, who is she and how does she feel? At the same time, as I got closer to the life of her, along with the concept of having and not having these three houses, I came to a greater discovery that was with me all the way through this movie, and remains with me: the search for the meaning of life in the constant struggle between fate and free will.